Friday, December 20, 2013




If somebody asks me what is your religion? I feel very uncomfortable because I don’t have a direct answer to it. I would say im half and half, my dad’s a catholic, mum’s a Buddhist, I did Buddhism for O/Ls but I am not baptized. What I find uncomfortable is what others would find funny. I have to constantly tell people that I am not an atheist, my moral compass does not always point north, but I have the intelligence to tell good and bad apart. However, if somebody asks me what I really believe in, I would say “I don’t want you to think of me as an antichrist, I love Jesus, I believe in Satan therefore I believe in god, and there is a balance of good and evil inside every human being that just isn’t in equilibrium. It fluctuates and tries to compete with each other alternately winning and losing. Evil is a force which is attributed to Satan so that average people can understand the concept. Thus, Satan is simply personified and it’s the same with God”
Then one day I fancied myself thinking I had an epiphany when I interpreted the bible in a different way. Throughout the Old Testament I see a very malevolent God and in the New Testament a very benevolent god. This reminded me of William Blake’s poem “The tiger”. The same God which forged a tiger made the lamb. (The lamb is biblical allusion to Jesus.) Then I felt how even God can at times be two-faced. When elaborating this further, a perfect example to explain the malevolent nature of god is to look at how he suggested punishment for various sins. Adultery is one of the seven deadly sins and according to the Catholic bible; adultery is to be punished with violence.
Leviticus 20:10 “If a man commits adultery with the wife or neighbor, both the adulterer and the adulteress shall be put to death”
Leviticus 20:11 “The man who lies with his father’s wife has uncovered his father’s nakedness; both of them shall be put to death; their blood is upon them”
Leviticus 20:14 “If a man takes a wife and her mother also, it is depravity; they shall be burned to death”
Leviticus 20:16 “If a woman approaches any animal and has sexual relations with it, you shall kill the woman and the animal; they shall be put to death, their blood is upon them”
These are Leviticus verses extracted from the bible as penalties for violations of holiness.
When a human being believes in a higher power, they refrain themselves from committing sins because they know that they cannot seek repentance, but they’ll be punished lawfully as the lord commands, for He himself states “I am the Lord your God”. Thus, a god-fearing nation would have a very acute sense of discipline and extreme self-control and society that is god-fearing would be very conservative as a whole.
What if a human being can doubt? He who doubts questions everything he sees, everything he hears. Doubt, according to Luciferian theory is the doorway to mental emancipation. Doubt is what had made the human race to advancement, to higher accomplishment in the art of science and technology, the forces that regulate and pushes humanity to its limits. In the world of science there are no limits and that has made this world godless. The nation we see today is godless. We ourselves are our own masters. In a religious context God doesn’t have the upper-hand anymore. There is a Lucifer in every one of us, making us doubt, making us fearless, and making us indulge in pleasure of all sorts.

Therefore in conclusion, maybe humans have to whether they like it or not believe that sin will one day be punished by some higher power. The degree to which the scare factor can control your actions would make you a better person. Good will then perhaps be strong enough in every human being to override evil when it tries to compete. Sometimes you will need the God in you to have the upper-hand. 

Monday, December 16, 2013




It was dark inside the hallway, dust lined the surfaces, and the paint was crumbling in places with cobwebs forming a creepy decor on the ceiling. Images of death, adultery, promiscuity, blood, beguilement, and fear shot past me in a very rapid series of blurred visions. That was the kind of passage I was walking down to find that dimly lit, comfortable, safe room I bought for myself amidst unsafe strangers. Somebody was inside the room next to mine, out of which came noises. They were strange to me. Muffled, exhilarated, shrill, gruff, incomprehensible mumbling and it was sweetly chaotic. I wondered what happened inside. The door was locked, though I felt this deep, tickling urge to open wondering what kind of scene I would walk into. So I took a few steps, very slowly. I stopped once I reached the door. My hand was automatically outstretched to knock. The sound came of a soft bang, and I heard a soft thud from inside. The door creaked open, slowly… He was fat, the kind that makes you think of liposuction, with a thick bush of hair on the chest, the kind that makes you throw up, his lips were pouty and dripping wet. He smiled to reveal a surprisingly even set of teeth though disgustingly yellow. He said “je regrette, Madame, mais je ne suis pas présentable” and winked. 




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